the Tuesday evening Holistic Healing meetings
that I attend are just the best
I am loving the attendees
and using what we are learning
and continuing on
so far: meditation, aromatherapy, nutrition,
and more to come
the session on "journaling"
which the Blizzard of 2011 temporarily
wiped off the map
has been rescheduled for next Saturday morning
a three hour session
rather than the one hour in the evening
and that is excellent
blogging will be included as a journaling tool
and I know I will learn new things
as I do every session
every day for that matter
one thing I wanted to expand upon
after the post about
identity and losing one's hair, etc.
some of the women in our Holistic group
some sporting sharp looking wigs
others shining naturally
we share about lots of things
and I like the fact that we have the first
30 minutes for open time
just to be together
my goal for this new year:
to learn from every person I meet
we cross paths for a moment in time
it may be extended, perhaps not,
yet in the brief time we have
even a laugh or a look may be a gift
a few words
a way of seeing things, a twist on an idea
that I never saw before...
I am the eternal student
and if something I have learned may be of
ah that makes me so happy
a woman in our group was preparing to face
for the first time
it was during our meditation session
and I shared a few words that were sent in her direction
if she received it, that was good
it was also good for me to remember
my experience of 35 times going into the
secured with walls 8-feet thick
I walked in alone each time
and the door was shut
with me inside
my thoughts were what I had with me
I decided from the get-go
that I would use the time as a kind of
saying over and over like my own simple mantra:
I welcome the healing light...
variations of those simple words over and over
focusing my attention on exactly where
the radiation was targeted
and doing my best to embrace
what I chose to do...
at one point in this process,
as beat up as I looked and felt,
I saw my body
in a whole new light
and out loud I said:
thank you, my body, for working so so hard.
at that moment, I felt so moved and there was such
a love and gratitude, a self-respect
that I had never known before
I want to live, my mind is so clear on that point
in the middle of the foggy mist whirling in my brain.
when I share about past events concerning my cancer-life,
I do hope it is not depressing or with a sense of
looking back and living there.
if you know someone else with cancer
this may be helpful to know another person's reflections /
each person steps to their own tune
my tune is softer now
I danced at my client's home yesterday!
Tony Bennett tunes they were, on her Bose
it was solo
until my friend showed up and we danced together!
it made my little 93-year old lady laugh
and isn't that a nice little gift
we gave each other?