at my little lady's home today /
her care team expressing lots of concerns
particularly about her overwhelming exhaustion...
when I suggested a nap
she said "after we do the Easter decorations, not now..."
at two of my thrift stores I scored some sweet
Easter decorations and we had fun opening the bag
might as well have been Christmas with all the fuss
and the fact that we now have two trees for her
it struck me that as tired as she was, it was more important
not after a nap
but right now
and she was totally involved with my antics
where to place what is what we decide together
what started as a Charlie Brown Easter tree
turned into a cute little gem
the bigger tree more elegant with a string of "pearls"
and light as a feather paper eggs floating amongst her vintage pieces
at a cost of $2.20 (things I brought)
what fun we had with so little
it is the doing
it is the pushing the nap aside
it is being present in the now
making a present to each other out of nothing but laughter really
and realizing the absolute beauty of
sharing even the tiniest moments of being with another being
I was asked yesterday if I really liked my job
if working 20-24 hours a week was maybe too much for me
I love my job even though at times I get very tired
if I could work more hours - at times I do - I would
there is no way to describe how much I gain from being with my elderly folks
and my friends who are staff members and fellow CareGivers
we directly affect people's lives
it is immediate
it is at times simple
repetitive the same stories over and over and over and over...
and I train my mind and ears to hear it anew over and yet again
because in their own fog
it is as fresh as a Spring morning breeze
and I want my return-smile to reflect that
...I was searching for music for her
and found some good ol' movies in a drawer!
Singing in the Rain!
it was a VHS wrapped never opened
so after her long nap she decided it was a good day
for a movie
and I actually got the tech stuff together to make it happen
(my kids would be either shocked and/or impressed)
we laughed and sang the songs we knew
had time for half the movie
the plan is to finish it next time I go over and visit
that will be Monday, many moments from now
we shall see
we shall see
"I'm singing in the rain
I'm singing in the rain
what a glorious feeling I'm happy again..."